January 30, 2005
Twist your hips
I think Jazz dance is really tough. I was learning jazz some years back and I thought that was really tough. Now, I think Hip Hop is tougher. And jazz is manageable. I'm taking MTV (hip hop/jazz) dance now. There're more and more jazz elements incorporated in our dance steps now. And surprisingly, the jazz elements are those that I have less problems in. Like sliding, twisting of hips and body, compared to hip hop moves which were a lot more jumping, hand punching, skipping moves. Basically, those hands-legs together moves.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 22:41
January 27, 2005
Keep walking, down our memory lane
Some night, some years ago. At the foyer below NUS central library. Studying for either a CFM Biology or CFM Perfume and cosmetics exam. I don't remember but I remember the company. And I remember the ambience.
The quiet charm of NUS at night. He said it gives a feeling of solitary and makes one feel like taking a long, slow walk. Ditto. Except that night, we didn't. Tonight, however, I walk down this lane and I truly miss the quiet charm and calming solitude that NUS by-night offers.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 23:18
January 26, 2005
Love & dating...28
Like I said, trust is sometimes a choiceless acceptance of what you don't know yet.
These stories that I heard, this pain that I can empathise with, these episodes of misplaced trust. It makes me question about this whole idea of marriage. The instituition of marriage crumbles so easily that sometimes, it's hard to believe people when they tell you they think marriage is for a lifetime. You just feel like throwing them the statistics and tell them to wake up their idea. It's like, which planet did you come from?
I've heard increasingly lot about getting married since I'm in that age group and my girlfriends are well, getting off the shelf. I tell you, people DO marry for all kinds of strange reasons. It's rather amusing, really. It's like a means to an end and boy, isn't the end so different for everyone!
Then, you start hearing about friends or old schoolmates filing for divorce. I tell you, people divorce for mostly the SAME kind of reason! The irony of it!
I think at the point when you decide to say 'I do' to someone, the assumption is that you know enough about him/her to want to spend the rest (or at least a good many years) of your life with him/her. We won't marry people for no real reason or when we hardly know the person, do we? Ok. Most of us don't.
So, how can this 'knowing him/her' turn out to be so wrong? I think, the hurt is as much about how much the other person seemed to have changed as it is about how wrong we were in our understanding and judgement.
Actually, how do we know what do we marry for? I don't know, man. It's like hanging on to something to see what's the worse that can happen. So, what's the bloody point, actually?
I usually don't make a lot of sense if I don't have a real answer or opinion. Do you have one? Share with me. Drop me a comment on marriage.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 22:16
Leather boots and tiger whip
After trying to be joking-mean to her, Kay said, not for the first time, that she can just imagine me being the kind of woman who would wear leather boots and animal-print suit and toying with a tiger whip.
Sometimes, I can feel her gaze upon me rather intensely. Maybe like how a tiger would eye its prey.
Am I being overly-sensitive, or what do you do with a colleague who is as suggestive as this? Add her to my MSN, of cos.
Thai green curry + panadol
I hope Fiona is feeling better. She did look a bit pale and tired yesterday. Still, it was good to meet the lady herself, finally.
You are like a changed person! Annie seconds me in that. I promise to be nicer to you from yesterday onwards. No sarcasm intended.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 22:07
January 24, 2005
Attn: Snow de shameless and Annie de Bionic
I wasn't really expecting you to copy and paste our MSN conversation onto your blog, you stupid arsehole. Incredibly impolite, aside from totally un-chivalrous and despicable and shameless and sore loser. I would have used a more controversial nickname that day if I knew you were going to do this ctrl+c, ctrl+v thingy.
I like your thinking, Annie, on your last post. Finally you are beginning to show a slightly kinky side too.
Tuesday. City Hall. AP and Bionic vs Archie. It's been so long since our last sparring. *rubs hands in glee* Kick arse, honey, kick arse.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 01:01
January 23, 2005
Production resumes on Monday.
Tough luck. Still very limited in good brain cells. Just got back from meeting my gerfrens group. This group of 6 ladies in all, whose first seed of friendship was sown back in sec sch days. You would have heard of them in this blog here and there. Names like Juan, Ade, Anna, Viv, Wenn (ya, that's how we know each other) and of cos myself.
Tight bra syndrome.
I hate underwire bras! Damn, I hate wearing bras, to begin with.
Like I shouldn't be skeptical.
I heard a few sad divorce/extra-marital affairs stories of some of my school mates today. Very demoralising. Just goes to show there is no 'the one'. You just gotta keep assuming that the person you are seeing is the one, until proven otherwise. Trust is, sometimes, an non-option to choose to accept what you don't know.
Chew on it for awhile more. I'd be back.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 23:46
Toothpicks at 2.30am
My eyelids are giving up their resistance to gravity. Just like my brain has given up on my mind.
It's the Sunday of what was supposed to be a long weekend. How come I didn't feel it was long at all? Too short. Too many programmes. Spent too much! argh!
Dec, Jan, Feb. 3 red alert months in budget. Spending so out of budget!
I hope to write again with more functioning brain cells this evening. Meanwhile, sleep has checked in.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 02:23
January 21, 2005
Beware of Boss.
I've got a new member in my family. He's called Hugo. He's a mini doberman pinscher.
My Mum's colleague gave him to us 'cos he had to go abroad and couldn't keep Hugo, together with his other pet dogs. Hugo is only 7 months old. He looks like a miniature giraffe to me. But, that's the look of his breed.
Very alert, very energetic, but very 'polite' too. He hasn't dared cross the boundaries of the living room, unless he's been taken out of it. I'm gonna keep him out of my bedroom, of course! But, he should really learn to love the floor of the kitchen better since his crate and water and (importantly) potty place are supposed to be there.
The first few words I said to him yesterday? 'Sit' 'No!' 'Good dog!' 'Good job!'
I felt like I'm back in school when at home.
Melissa> Gotta get some dog-training tips from u soon ok! And whoever that has any to offer (esp. potty training), pls drop a comment. thanks!
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 17:54
Is it my blusher or is it my blush?
A photocopier machine. 3 ladies. Many pieces of worksheets.
After looking at her for 20 seconds, A spoke.
A: You ah... You are really getting prettier and prettier eh?
She looks around and responded with a "huh"?
A: Ya, you. You getting prettier eh?
She very graciously smiled and said "Thank you".
A: I wouldn't be surprised if you tell me you are getting married soon. You look like you are.
She reacted immediately with a "Huh, no lah!!"
K: Ya. You have this glow on your face recently. Getting prettier...
A: Ya... Either you are getting married soon or you must be in love.
She opened her eyes quite big in amaze-amusement and said, "No lah... you both thinking too much."
She reasserted her state of non-attachment by saying the Chinese equivalence of 'not even 1/4 way there'.
K: Maybe you are, but just that we don't know... That's why you have this radiant look...
A: Ya... I can see the hormonal change in you. This rosy glow...
She laughed. She said, "Hormonal change? Next thing you would be telling me is you think I'm pregnant!"
At around this time, the papers and worksheets have been sorted out and each took theirs and walked away to their own work, smiling. Smiling, ostensibly for very different reasons.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 17:41
January 18, 2005
I thought the last entry was in mid Dec, which wouldn't be that long ago. But turned out to be more than a month ago. Anyway, I have more stories to tell of rebellious children and children who do not know how to communicate effectively now than I have of love and dating.
Still, I try. A little bit of adaptation from the few chats I have with jh and Ade recently. Here goes...
Love & dating...27
'Cos our parents are not going to be around forever. 'Cos even close friends also have other close friends beside ourselves. 'Cos work can fuck you up big time.
'Cos dreams need not be more than dreams. 'Cos the night can get so cold. 'Cos the crowd can be so quiet. 'Cos loneliness can get quite loud. 'Cos sometimes, we forget to believe even in ourselves.
'Cos it's so difficult to dye our hair ourselves. 'Cos we try to forget to take the medicine whenever we can get away with it. 'Cos we need someone to come back to at the end of the day. 'Cos we need to know that someone thinks we are love-able.
'Cos we want to be in time for the housing rebate. No, NOT that!
I'm looking forward to V-day. Reminds me of 'cos.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 18:01
January 16, 2005
Chicken Dance
Ya, that sorta sums up my dance class today. hee... I was giggling throughout. And not just me. Ade felt the same way.
Gelato @ Clarke Quay
Ya, that was what bblics and me headed for after our dinner at Coffee Club, Taka. Almost as nice as the one we had in Europe. It felt great, catching up on that comfortable silence, sharing gelato and by the riverside with the breeze. It's been three freaking weeks since we last touched base!
Curry Favour with a bit of French
Ya, that was where Shaohao and me had for dinner on Saturday. And then, i went on to learn a few French phrase from him. Nice. Olio @ Suntec, basement. Nice place. Good to catch up with him. I hope his position at work improves soon. And he just gve me a great idea... Maybe I ought take that trip with Bblics to Shanghai.
Hey, handsome, remember you are in a league of your own. No pain, no gain. And, always take faith in what your Dad used to counsel you. hee
abiento!
As you can tell...
I'm typing with my long fingernails again. Which is part of the reason why I'm trying to make it short n concise. I hate it when my fingers can't feel the keys at the same time my fingernails felt them. Argh!
The other reason is... I'm like rushing for time. Shit. Totally did no work this weekend. Not that I have any to do lah... wow.. hee.. I stayed back till almost 7pm on Friday to finish my work. Went for a hair trim just now. Now my head feels so much lighter. In time for CNY.
so, I guess that's it!
Lastly...
Purvis street OR liang Seah St sounds good. but hello! Shouldn't u be paying me for interviewing me? Shameless to ask us to pay you for asking questions. You give yourself too much credit, honey.
I'm outta here. It's week 3 tomorrow.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 23:20
January 09, 2005
The Phantom of the Opera
Watched that with Jh yesterday. It was a show that left me with a lot of ambivalence towards the 3 main characters - Christin, Ralph and the Phantom. Emotionally intense throughout with fantastic singing. It kept me on the seat, I was totally into the movie and the singing. I love the song that they sang on what looked like the rooftop of the opera house. Great song, very romantic.
I like the show. Thumbs up! ^^
xxx
Gangster girl
One of my Mum's nickname for my sister, Janet. We have a lot of nicknames for one another in my family. That has extended to the both boyfriends of both my sisters.
xxx
Week Two
Math LP. Checked.
Leisure Skills LP. Checked.
IT LP. Checked.
LRS LP. Pending for discussion with Karen on Monday.
Class Rule and Class labels print out. Work-in-progress.
Fruitful week.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 22:13
Tortoise underground sees the world
Hey people! *takes a deep breath of this cyber air* It's so nice to be able to sit at home and blog. Really. p.s. my last entry was done in quite a hurry in school.
First of all, let me say that I've been to visit my regular fellow bloggers' blogspace.
Mr Shameless Snow, bravo!!! 'Yiping' writting a thesis proposal on education of Chinese Lang in Sg! Want to interview me on my pet topic ah? Make your booking in advance ok! I usually allocate more time when there's good food involved. And when can Annie and I meet the reason for your mushy behaviour?
Thank you ign (who are u? intro lah...) and bionic dear for the recommendation for cough. I think longan and red date tea is good too leh! cos I had a warm cup of that tea from some instant mix on Fri and I almost immediately stopped coughing. Oh, and of course plenty of warm water.
I'm multi-tasking between listening to TV and blogging. If there's any charity show I actually make a point to watch and dial that 1900-_, it would have to be RenCi show. My godfather was a resident there before he passed away last Dec. At the same time, I'm online to do my lesson plans and prepare IT scheme of work for the prep level kiddos in my sch. Meaning, I gotta try not to get addicted to the online games later that I have to select for SOW. Hee...
I'm teaching Pri 2 Maths to my class this year, as well as IT, as well as Leisure skills (aka art n craft), as well as what we call Life Readiness Skills. I'm also in the IT dept and Library committee. Who would have thought that?
Ok! Lemme get back to work. I'd come back later in the evening. *smile*
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 19:34
January 06, 2005
Who ate my Alligator pie?
School started, again. Objectively, I have a more challenging class this year. 8 students, about half of whom would give my blood pressure reasons to rise. However, strangely, I feel much happier this term and more in control. I still ask myself why did I have to do this, particularly every morning when I had to drag myself out of bed at 6am. But, once in action, I feel more ready and confident in my role compared to last term.
And I really have to. 'Cos my co-teacher of our class is a new staff member. She still needs time to adjust and assert her style of teaching and class management. Honestly, sometimes I feel like I'm the only 'old' one in my class cos new students, new co-teacher. I had to orientate the students and the teacher too. I had to lead the class most of the time this week. The plus point is, my students already know who's boss by now.
But, I've been having a lot of fun as soon as the dismissal bell goes off. Sounds incredible? It is indeed the truth. There is a new bunch of staff this year. Many of whom are in their mid or late twenties. The average age of my work community has been pulled down a fair bit by their entry. It's a lot of fun. As usual, I quickly became a figure of irony as they start to know me as a 'rather crappy' and 'drama' colleague rather than 'gentle' and 'demure'. Like I always say, "I put what my Mum gave me to the best use. Life is full of surprises." *wink*
Coughing a bit now though. Anybody has good remedy or good concoctions to protect the vocals, esp in my line of work? Any fellow teachers, maybe? Leave a comment ok! I'm serious.
xxx
$2 a day
My sis has decided to switch our online plan to the kind where you only pay for the day when you log on to internet. So, if you don't use everyday, you actually don't have to pay. That means I no longer have the luxury of going online as and when I like even for just checking emails for 3 mins. Or blogging for 10 mins.
Hence, expect to see less of me on MSN and even lesser of my blog entries. But if I do log on, in school or at home, I'm sure to make it worth the $2. So, pls keep updating your blogs, fellow bloggers! =)
Cheers!
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 15:42
January 02, 2005
New Year Resolutions
Kyn urged me to make at least one and try to keep it. I asked if I can make a 3-years plan kinda resolution. Not because I need more time to keep it. More because in the 3 years, hopefully, Kyn would forget it. And I would forget about forgetting it. If you get my drift. Then again, Kyn doesn't need 3 years to forget something.
On another occasion, Juan asked what gift would you give yourself if you could give anything to yourself. I answered, 'the gift of non-procrastination'. I want to terminate my citizenship from procrasti-nation.
That's not a resolution. Just something I'd remind myself about and something you can all remind me of. ^_^
xxx
Never can prepare enough
The thing about my work is that I often get the feeling that there must be something that I haven't prepared for. Just that I don't know what. This strikes most on Sunday nights. Like tonight.
I practically had problem sleeping for all except one Sunday night last school term. Terrible feeling, I can assure you.
At the same time, I am confident that my delicate digestive system is planning a revolt as soon as I let too much stress over the gantry. I can sense its conspiracy today when I was having lunch with Ade. That's why I didn't finish my lunch and had to sip so slowly on my barley drink.
All prepared for first day of school 2005 in Pathlight School? You bet!
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 21:52
Happy 2nd day into 2005
I went to watch the jap movie, Nobody knows, with Caibei yesterday. It was about how 4 young children from the same mother but different fathers had to take care of one another and became one another's life support when their mother decided to pursue her own happiness and flee from her responsibility of being a mother. It was rather touching. The children are really cute, especially the younger two.
However, I find the pace a bit too slow and a bit too long-winded in the middle. So that towards the end, although it was really quite a moving end, I also felt relief that it's finally over. And the show probably missed out a number of details in the translation. 'Cos there were certain scenes and characters where Caibei and I absolutely do not understand nor account for.
Caibei cried. Halfway thru. I guessed it must have reminded her of her own brothers and sisters back in China. I asked her later and she said the eldest brother in the show resembles her younger brother.
I wonder if I would cry if I were residing overseas and watching a show that reminds me of my 2 sisters. I think not. But YES, if it's my parents I'm reminded of. hee
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 10:24